after a beutiful day and evening after kisses and promises its over its gone and youve done to me what i did to you in the first place i lost everyone now...nothing left....but you cant tell me that i had hurt you anymore.....because youve gone and done it to me...my heart is on the floor and im bleeding...are we even now?

lunacon
well this weekend was eventful....people places playing empty stairwells outside on the wet ground....fun drunkeness debauchery with a touch of drama..no regrets for things i did some for thigns i didnt...my heads a cloud now and i have alot to think about...no repercussions just thoughts.....noone to drain them too...sigh

i cant wait go with you love...your post made me smile and yet again neon was playing...odd huh?too the test and passed it which is nice...tomorrow we shall ditch boy x and have too much fun to handle..cant wait to taste the custard..oh that sounded bad..

Im tired of being alone so hurry up and get here
I couldve met you in a sandbox
I couldve passed you on the sidewalk
Could i have missed my chance
and watched you walk away...


my life so bitterly resembles this song..and the sad part is only one person reads this thing and one of the reasons im so upset today is cause of that person..i just dont understnad how a person who calls themselves a good friend and seemed as excited as i was about saturday cuz just up and ditch me for a guy and a nudie bar...the fact of the matter is we talked that afternoon adn things seemed to be going as planned and then...this...im confused and hurt and scared and i dont know anymore...i have the person im supposed to live up to and i cant bear tog et myself to do it....you broke me lovie...and i miss you but im so hurt right now.....

im lost i had a friend come over yesterday and tell me that he was confused with his life..he is in the same boat all of us are in. i dont know whats loved and whats lost and whats left to gain..i dont know whether to belive in my faith my love or my hope i dont even look in the mirror and find myself attractive anymore. i dont know what the point is..i want an epic love but i think im destined to be allone forever

i am so tired of all of this...im tired of hating im tired of the bullshit im tired of crying myself to sleep at night...people love to take my innocence and leave me empty only one really understands and belle i dont know what to do any more?

There are levels to things we cannot see. Whole spectrums of reason we aren't privy to. It can never be an eye for an eye or none of us will be left with sight.

Jason grifo



Your soul is bound to the Solitary Rose: The
Alone.

"When I wake up alone, the shades are still
drawn on the cold window pane so they cast
their lines on my bed and lines on my
face."

The Solitary Rose is associated with loneliness,
melancholy, and patience. It is governed by
the goddess Merope and its sign is The Sword,
or Unrequited Love.

As a Solitary Rose, you may be summed up as a
hopeless romantic. You desire love and have so
much love to give, but thing just never seem to
work out the way you want them to. In life,
you can be very optomistic, even when things
are gray and nothing works out to your
expectations.


What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
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i dont know what to think im stranded at a loss of creativity

i dont know whats going on im kind of lost and confused as it comes to al this..why did my name get turned into a nieghborhood slang trm for a slut....i dont understand any of it but i guess im not meant to...he said he had an epipahny im hoping its as good as it says it is..he said it would make me happy but nothing would make me happier than to be in his arms whenever i could..childish and romantic a notion i know but i find sometimes thats what you need to get you through the day

stuff and thigns yeah i guess thats it i kinda wigged out last night i dont know it was crazy ihave to water elemnts and im jsut a catalyst...im starting to believe that what everyone else says is true...but if it is true then why do i feel so safe around the people i should why do i not want him to stop touching me why do i never want her to go away again...why do i feel nothing inside....he took my pain she grunded my soul it was an unexplicable night an frak ion know what distruction causes..but myblood saved my life and fre and ice cn destroythe world...why am i here again?

A new beginning
Somewhere noone ventures somewhere my journy has begun yet my biggest fear in life in living in the world around me is myself..i fear ive got something inside that i have to hide....that ive a new life in my viens...i fear that i have something to fear becuase i am nothing more than an empty shell of my former self..i fear ive lost all ive found and all ive found ive only yet to lose.....i began this to counter my journies into the world known to me..to let mayhaps someone other than the mundane everyday lifeforces affect my soul..only then will i know that i am real